Paperback: 246 pages, appropriate for all ages
Publisher: CavanKerry (November 13, 2012)
A coming of age memoir written in the voice of a twelve year old Irish Catholic girl living in the Bronx in 1954, Confessions recounts one year in the life of Joan, a very tall, religious, funny, self-conscious, obsessive, resilient, guilt ridden, emotionally imprisoned, lovable girl whose journey takes her from innocence, isolation, and inhibition to the beginnings of freedom and awakening. Fiercely committed to seeing only the good –be it in her family or the world, the Joan who greets us is flush with the beauty and pleasure of family and the Lord.
Gradually however, she sinks into the devastation of adolescent self consciousness over her many physical problems including her height, her weak bladder and her body’s eruption with boils and colitis all of which set her off from the boys and girls her age and open her up to ridicule of the most vicious kind. Her battles are also spiritual: her unbridled guilt and view of herself as a sinner far from the girl Jesus and her father want and deserve and her abject terror of “having to be a nun”; and familial as well: her ambivalent relationships with her parents and siblings which deteriorate into extremely painful interactions and betrayals.
Of particular importance are her relationships with her parents–while her father is the adored saintly ideal she struggles to model and please, her possessive often angry and withholding mother demands complete obedience of the very malleable Joan as she conducts her battle to control the family.
Confused by her Catholic commitment to confess all one’s wrongs on the one hand and her mothers’ dictate to say nothing of what happens inside the family ‘four walls’, Joan struggles to find a place where she can reveal all that torments her—this relief she finds in her notebook. And it is her compulsion to write her pain along with her resilience, maturity, her growing awareness of her parents’ imperfections, her sustained love affair with the beach and her emerging sexuality and attractiveness that ultimately save her and prepare her for life in the world outside her family and small community.
I thoroughly enjoyed reading about Joan Cusack Handler's life growing up. Her stories is divided up into short segements that are easy to read in short spurts of time or just as enjoyable sitting down and devouring her tales all at once. It's a great coming-of-age story that has poingant moments and funny ones too.
If you enjoy memoirs or stories of days gone past, you'll enjoy "Confessions of Joan The Tall."
About Joan Cusack Handler:
Publisher and senior editor of CavanKerry Press, Ltd., a not-for-profit literary press that serves both art and community, Joan has two published poetry collections– Glorious and The Red Canoe: Love in Its Making. Her poems have appeared in Agni, Boston Review, Poetry East and The New York Times among others. She’s received five Pushcart nominations and awards from The Boston Review and the Chester H. Jones Foundation. She has also served as resident faculty at the Frost Place annual poetry festival. In her other life, she’s a psychologist in clinical practice.
Connect with Joan at her website, joancusackhandler.com, or on her blog.
Joan Cusack Handler’s TLC Book Tours TOUR STOPS:Monday, November 26th: Patricia’s Wisdom
Tuesday, November 27th: Pingwing’s Bookshelf
Wednesday, November 28th: Fiction Addict
Thursday, November 29th: A Catholic Mom Climbing the Pillars
Friday, November 30th: Bookchickdi
Monday, December 3rd: Sharon’s Garden of Book Reviews
Tuesday, December 4th: She Treads Softly
Wednesday, December 5th: Speaking of Books
Friday, December 7th: Confessions from a Rambling Mind
Monday, December 10th: House of the Seven Tails
Tuesday, December 11th: Simply Stacie
Wednesday, December 12th: Bibliosue
Thursday, December 13th: WV Stitcher
Friday, December 14th: Luxury Reading
Monday, December 17th: Day by Day in Our World
Tuesday, December 18th: Peeking Between the Pages
Wednesday, December 19th: Reading Between the Lines
My thanks to TLC Book Tours for including me on this tour and for providing the review copy. I was not compensated for my opinion.